ah, life... :)
it's good. Taking extra classes - going to lectures - meeting people - being alone - cooking - reading - sleeping.
Went to the beach with Anke today. The beach is like 15 minutes by bike! :D
I should not have internet on my room: it takes away all this precious time i was using very usefull before i got internet: i was actually doing a lot of cultivation and lots of reading too.
ERGO this post will stop...
though i'm hearing this song by the weepies again - it strikes me as true; meeting new people, getting to ''know'' them, them getting to ''know'' me... really? People really seem not to understand i'm NOT an unworldly ascetic constantly trying to hurt myself... in fact, i can't imagine doing it differently: eating meat etc? sleeping way too much, getting up late, going to bad late? not doing schoolwork? - that can't bring any happiness i'd think.
But then: this is just a mood; there are a lot of cool and interesting people around here. (i should not forget that)
ps: i'm actually missing CTTB - wanna be back there; practicing, learning, meeting people... Oregon too... argh... summer?
donderdag 24 september 2009
zondag 20 september 2009
what to believe? - or: science's other side
(if you begin to read this; please also read the last line)
telepathy, psychokinesis, reincarnation, mediumship, ghosts, mind-body dualism and so forth ; i was raised (combination of media, school, parents, etc) with the idea that such ideas are nonsense in this scientific age.
Yet... some months ago i began seeing the other side of science: scientists who seriously study such phenomena and think rejecting them as ''nonsense'' is true nonsense... actually, a lot of scientists who study the phenomena believe in their plausibility. (Now, i'm not saying there is satisfying evidence for the above phenomena. BUT: for some there is, which makes dismissing the whole group harder.)
Of course i am crazy and unable to judge statistics, i myself just like words and ideas, sometimes a moderate amount of feelings, but here is a man who knows statistics and is led to reject rejecting psi:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qw_O9Qiwqew
A site full of serious articles by serious people seriously defending serious mentality-materiality dualism... good stuf:
www.newdualism.org
An article reviewing evidence of psi:
http://www.dina.kvl.dk/~abraham/psy1.html
Is that too far out? Then try read something simple, though it will surely amaze:
http://www.sheldrake.org/Articles&Papers/papers/staring/sensoryclues_abs.html
author's website: www.sheldrake.org
ok, now all science-type people reading this think: ''we know fedde, he's just a crazy alpha convinced by ideas. Statistically this is all nonsense and serious scientists will surely reject such rubbish''. Well, here's a professor in statistics who has reviewed studies:
http://www.ics.uci.edu/~jutts/azpsi.html ; here website (also more articles on the subject): http://anson.ucdavis.edu/~utts/
wanna read something interesting? read this: http://www.scientificexploration.org/journal/jse_19_1_keil.pdf
as always: i'm highly interested in what you think and in feedback, thanks in advance. :)
edited to add this q/a on parapsychology: http://www.parapsych.org/faq_file1.html
i'm not trying to convince anybody (can't even say i'm 100% convinced myself (100% convinced is always dangerous, though i admit i have a few philosophical points i'd be prepared to defend until death)) again: i don't want you to read this post and think all the above phenomena are true; i just want you to rethink why you think they are untrue or true.
peace,
fedde
telepathy, psychokinesis, reincarnation, mediumship, ghosts, mind-body dualism and so forth ; i was raised (combination of media, school, parents, etc) with the idea that such ideas are nonsense in this scientific age.
Yet... some months ago i began seeing the other side of science: scientists who seriously study such phenomena and think rejecting them as ''nonsense'' is true nonsense... actually, a lot of scientists who study the phenomena believe in their plausibility. (Now, i'm not saying there is satisfying evidence for the above phenomena. BUT: for some there is, which makes dismissing the whole group harder.)
Of course i am crazy and unable to judge statistics, i myself just like words and ideas, sometimes a moderate amount of feelings, but here is a man who knows statistics and is led to reject rejecting psi:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qw_O9Qiwqew
A site full of serious articles by serious people seriously defending serious mentality-materiality dualism... good stuf:
www.newdualism.org
An article reviewing evidence of psi:
http://www.dina.kvl.dk/~abraham/psy1.html
Is that too far out? Then try read something simple, though it will surely amaze:
http://www.sheldrake.org/Articles&Papers/papers/staring/sensoryclues_abs.html
author's website: www.sheldrake.org
ok, now all science-type people reading this think: ''we know fedde, he's just a crazy alpha convinced by ideas. Statistically this is all nonsense and serious scientists will surely reject such rubbish''. Well, here's a professor in statistics who has reviewed studies:
http://www.ics.uci.edu/~jutts/azpsi.html ; here website (also more articles on the subject): http://anson.ucdavis.edu/~utts/
wanna read something interesting? read this: http://www.scientificexploration.org/journal/jse_19_1_keil.pdf
as always: i'm highly interested in what you think and in feedback, thanks in advance. :)
edited to add this q/a on parapsychology: http://www.parapsych.org/faq_file1.html
i'm not trying to convince anybody (can't even say i'm 100% convinced myself (100% convinced is always dangerous, though i admit i have a few philosophical points i'd be prepared to defend until death)) again: i don't want you to read this post and think all the above phenomena are true; i just want you to rethink why you think they are untrue or true.
peace,
fedde
donderdag 3 september 2009
back in holland - new in oegstgeest
It’s been a long time, a long long time. And yet this post won’t cover all of it – I will leave my time in CTTB to your imagination (or just to another post), as I will most of my time in Holland. What then will I write about? About the last few days, beginning with Sunday when I moved into my room in Oegstgeest (suburb of Leiden). I only got here after a four hour train journey… usually it takes 3 hours, but this time I was stupid enough to miss a station and get out in The Hague HS instead of Leiden . A good test for my second precept of not stealing: traveling back the temptation is to not pay for it is strong and my internal lawyers had a lot of good arguments not to pay for the distance I had traveled too much; yet I did pay; and honestly, honesty feels right.
So now I’ve got my own place in the world! A place with no parents or siblings, where I need to feed myself, and, not to forget, without internet! (I use the UB – university’s library – to access the internet.) Not having internet really gives me a whole lot of time. Though I do realize I miss some socializing: no msn, less e-mail, less blogging. Well, as for now this is perfect actually, and free (UB’s internet access is free to students :D)… maybe I’ll get forced into getting internet at my room in some weeks, who knows.
With a lot of free time – no classes, and thus no reading, yet, (and no internet :P) – I almost automatically take a lot of time for cultivation. The first few days back in Holland I had difficulty picking up my daily cultivation again – in CTTB it took less effort, I could just step into the Buddha Hall at the right time – but here in Oegstgeest the effort that goes into cultivation feels natural. Cultivation seems like the default setting of my activities at the moment. Though I guess this will not last too long.
Time for an embarrassing story… yesterday the institute for Religious Studies (= my institute! :D:D) was opened and I planned to get up early, go to the UB and then be at the opening way before it would start… it would start at 10:30. But, somehow, having gone to bed around 22:00, I still seemed to need sleep after 6:00, so I gave in and reset my alarm at 8:00… at 8:00 I decided to just turn around once, not using snooze but thinking I would get up in few moments. A few moments later I looked at the clock, which told me it was 10:10! It took me a few moments to realize what that meant, but once I did I was completely awake. Having changed my clothes, skipping morning recitation, breakfast and the bathroom I jumped on my bike and actually made it!!! A true miracle. As soon as I sat down, the opening ceremony started!
Peace,
fedde
So now I’ve got my own place in the world! A place with no parents or siblings, where I need to feed myself, and, not to forget, without internet! (I use the UB – university’s library – to access the internet.) Not having internet really gives me a whole lot of time. Though I do realize I miss some socializing: no msn, less e-mail, less blogging. Well, as for now this is perfect actually, and free (UB’s internet access is free to students :D)… maybe I’ll get forced into getting internet at my room in some weeks, who knows.
With a lot of free time – no classes, and thus no reading, yet, (and no internet :P) – I almost automatically take a lot of time for cultivation. The first few days back in Holland I had difficulty picking up my daily cultivation again – in CTTB it took less effort, I could just step into the Buddha Hall at the right time – but here in Oegstgeest the effort that goes into cultivation feels natural. Cultivation seems like the default setting of my activities at the moment. Though I guess this will not last too long.
Time for an embarrassing story… yesterday the institute for Religious Studies (= my institute! :D:D) was opened and I planned to get up early, go to the UB and then be at the opening way before it would start… it would start at 10:30. But, somehow, having gone to bed around 22:00, I still seemed to need sleep after 6:00, so I gave in and reset my alarm at 8:00… at 8:00 I decided to just turn around once, not using snooze but thinking I would get up in few moments. A few moments later I looked at the clock, which told me it was 10:10! It took me a few moments to realize what that meant, but once I did I was completely awake. Having changed my clothes, skipping morning recitation, breakfast and the bathroom I jumped on my bike and actually made it!!! A true miracle. As soon as I sat down, the opening ceremony started!
Peace,
fedde
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