China is coming close... wow :)
My exams finished (huh, why do i intuitively write exams now instead of finals?), my mind cleared away from the stressful atmosphere they brought, i'm free and almost flying (literally).
Bought a bagpack this morning and read about Shanghai now (lonely planet guide), making notes of the things i really want to visit. Really really really exciting! REaLlY!
And:
thinking back on the past years, i constantly forget - please remind me all the time - that it was not a load of crap or misery: not! It has been a productive and forming time in my life. Gratefulness to my teachers and parents, to my brother and sister, grandparents, my friends - the everyday ones and the ones i'm going to meet (quickly!).
ok, i'm actually at work now - but the sun is shining so loudly (haha) that no one (except some folks) would ever think of going to a museum - thus they don't... + it is ''straatfestival'' (street festival?!) lots of art and music on the street - think i'm going to enjoy some of it this evening.
blah, it's boring though: nobody is coming here and i'm just reading and internetting on the most unproductive ways i know of... :P haha, for this i get money
beyey
fedde
zaterdag 30 mei 2009
vrijdag 29 mei 2009
Seeing Sangha
Today I was fortunate enough to have one of those rare and precious moments in my life when i see a monk; what's more: a Sanghan actually. I was cycling to the town centre and suddenly i saw a monk! In leeuwarden! Of all places! Now i'm feeling i should have just stopped and greet, ask some things and so forth - i didn't. But nevertheless it was a great reminder of something really precious in the world. Judging from the robes, it was a Theravadan monk, my feeling says burmese, but i don't really know why...
Homage to the eternally abiding Sangha of all Sages and Worthy ones of the ten direction to the ends of empty space!
respectfully,
fedde
(btw, the picture in this post was just one i found on the internet; not the monk i saw)
voting?
i'm 18, so the 4th of june i may vote; now what should i vote? Any ideas?
no pvv (never!);
no sp (socialist party) - they're too anti-europe for me;
no cda; christenunie or sgp - they're not for allowing Turkey into the Eu while i think that would be one of the best possible things to do (if Turkey fulfills the conditions of course); their opinion hereon is based on cultural considerations! ~ bad idea to say: ''we are christian, they are muslim => impossible match'' cause for one: Europe does not and should not pretend to be a cultural union; two: countries aren't meant to be cultural unions too - for as far we think so: stop thinking so (perhaps look at the USA for an example once!; 3: there is no such thingie as a dutch christian culture: if one out of 16 people is muslim and 7 out of 16 is christian... euh... there is no point in talking about a singular culture. (i enjoyed the text of Taylor on secularism in our philosophy textbook)
BUT MIND YOU: i'm not secular, oh no! i'm religious like hell haha (nor is Taylor - a catholic convert):)
d66 - i don't rule voting them out as of yet (though my father never speaks kindly of them)
groenlinks - the party i grew up with; the alternative ones: green and social; but it is haard to find what they think;
vvd - the debate i saw of a vvd'er with a pvv'er, i thought the vvd'er was quite ok, but i've got my doubts too; not so social party they are.
ok, so i just did this test to get out what i should vote, and (top = most fitting to my opinions, bottoms = opposite :P):
D66
GroenLinks
Partij voor de Dieren
SP
PvdA
Newropeans
Solidara
De Groenen
Partij voor Europese Politiek
Libertas
LibDem
ChristenUnie/SGP
Europa Voordelig! & Duurzaam
CDA
VVD
Europese Klokkenluiders Partij
PVV
ok, gotta think on it some more, i do feel it is important, :)
voting for live,
fedde
no pvv (never!);
no sp (socialist party) - they're too anti-europe for me;
no cda; christenunie or sgp - they're not for allowing Turkey into the Eu while i think that would be one of the best possible things to do (if Turkey fulfills the conditions of course); their opinion hereon is based on cultural considerations! ~ bad idea to say: ''we are christian, they are muslim => impossible match'' cause for one: Europe does not and should not pretend to be a cultural union; two: countries aren't meant to be cultural unions too - for as far we think so: stop thinking so (perhaps look at the USA for an example once!; 3: there is no such thingie as a dutch christian culture: if one out of 16 people is muslim and 7 out of 16 is christian... euh... there is no point in talking about a singular culture. (i enjoyed the text of Taylor on secularism in our philosophy textbook)
BUT MIND YOU: i'm not secular, oh no! i'm religious like hell haha (nor is Taylor - a catholic convert):)
d66 - i don't rule voting them out as of yet (though my father never speaks kindly of them)
groenlinks - the party i grew up with; the alternative ones: green and social; but it is haard to find what they think;
vvd - the debate i saw of a vvd'er with a pvv'er, i thought the vvd'er was quite ok, but i've got my doubts too; not so social party they are.
ok, so i just did this test to get out what i should vote, and (top = most fitting to my opinions, bottoms = opposite :P):
D66
GroenLinks
Partij voor de Dieren
SP
PvdA
Newropeans
Solidara
De Groenen
Partij voor Europese Politiek
Libertas
LibDem
ChristenUnie/SGP
Europa Voordelig! & Duurzaam
CDA
VVD
Europese Klokkenluiders Partij
PVV
ok, gotta think on it some more, i do feel it is important, :)
voting for live,
fedde
beautiful
from the URI newsletter i receive on my e-mail:
Just this week, an Indigenous youth from the Guarani tradition from the URI global youth network shared these words from his heart: "Nature is a fundamental pillar for the life of the world, which is what my grandparents and all their ancestors were leaving as a legacy for all of us. For a while now, some unpleasant things have been happening on Earth as the result of us having lost touch with nature. We act in respect to our future without considering the consequences...that's why I would like the scream of the wind to be heard throughout the world and to tell the world that natural resources can be used for human benefit, but should not be exterminated by which the resources cannot be renewed. It would be beautiful if our children could enjoy this land as much as we do. We must never lose respect of Her (la Pachamama) because it is through Her we live."
that is a voice worth being heard! :)
yours,
fedde
Just this week, an Indigenous youth from the Guarani tradition from the URI global youth network shared these words from his heart: "Nature is a fundamental pillar for the life of the world, which is what my grandparents and all their ancestors were leaving as a legacy for all of us. For a while now, some unpleasant things have been happening on Earth as the result of us having lost touch with nature. We act in respect to our future without considering the consequences...that's why I would like the scream of the wind to be heard throughout the world and to tell the world that natural resources can be used for human benefit, but should not be exterminated by which the resources cannot be renewed. It would be beautiful if our children could enjoy this land as much as we do. We must never lose respect of Her (la Pachamama) because it is through Her we live."
that is a voice worth being heard! :)
yours,
fedde
donderdag 28 mei 2009
ps to the last post :P
after such a - way too long - post i realize i forgot to include a link to some hilarious philosophical humor (well, probably just for me and a couple other strange book-loving people :P).
http://consc.net/phil-humor.html
i'm specifically talkin' about the proofs of p, they're really great, sooo funny.
an example:
Goodman:
Zabludowski has insinuated that my thesis that p is false, on the basis of alleged counterexamples. But these so- called "counterexamples" depend on construing my thesis that p in a way that it was obviously not intended -- for I intended my thesis to have no counterexamples. Therefore p.
see you all,
fedde
http://consc.net/phil-humor.html
i'm specifically talkin' about the proofs of p, they're really great, sooo funny.
an example:
Goodman:
Zabludowski has insinuated that my thesis that p is false, on the basis of alleged counterexamples. But these so- called "counterexamples" depend on construing my thesis that p in a way that it was obviously not intended -- for I intended my thesis to have no counterexamples. Therefore p.
see you all,
fedde
final(s) thoughts, looking back,
Yup, can't go back now. I did. I made. I'm still alive (contrary to my expectations - really). COOL!
First yesterday: economy was DIFFICULT (or should it be economics? don't feel like looking it up... just like the distinction between finals and exams; i've got no clue :P haha). After seeing the first few questions if was totally stressing, fearing, frightened to death - in the end i made all questions, and, having looked up the official answers op eindexamen.nu, it seems it was not a disaster, just my exagerating mind. Fortunately. Everybody (except Matthee of course, lol) thought it was difficult, so the norm might be rather nice too! :)
Today: geography (finally a final Matthee thought was hard!) ~ it went well, though i've never to be able to tell with geography. I feel i did rather well, quite well, not to say good.
English - even though all my misspellings (they must be in my blog a lot, but i'm a) writing them because i don't see them (duh!) b) sometimes not in the mood to look words up c) thinking that if anyone would come across one you'd be kind enough to make a comment - i'd be grateful, really! :D )and my other stupid mistakes and misuses of the english language (sorry!), i usually think english is easy - as it is - which i think it was today - which it was... at least how i see it. The only thing they're doing is confusing you with the questions; so: don't look too long but just fill in the right answer and don't doubt. I finished real quick that way :P will work just fine.
ok, that for what was the last few days.
but now: what do i think of the last years? some points:
a) it has lacked challenge severely - not too much effort brought me good notes i just didn't deserve. Putting effort into learning is something i really like, but if i'm ahead of class and the teachers don't spot that, just let you be and pay attention to people ''who need it'' (i.e. people who either lack effort or ability (don't mean this rude) ~ frustrating it is...
so anyone who will ever teach (including me if i'll ever), as if i'm in the position to even give advice:
please do take care to pay some attention to the ones who are doing exceptionally well!
b) i've had time to do incredibly interesting things, to build up some interesting contacts, and to be alone, to be together too with people. Playing in a band has been really great; one learns so much, musically, socially, humanly (that is no word :P). Learning Chinese (well, some of it - nine days and i'll now how much it has been!) , translating from English, reading books on subjects some people don't know they exist. (How about reading ''History of Islamic Philosophy; an introduction'' by Leezenberg? (Dutch though, i translated the title) very interesting and worth reading, especially nowadays with this worldalizing - globalizing :P)
I've followed both greek and latin and really enjoyed both of them. It has enhanced my skills with language, logic and stories, and also the human aspect of stories: feelings. (Feelings can really be felt when reading words older that this flesh-bone simple thing - my body.)
Also economy (or whatever) has been interesting; my (now ex-)teacher is really one of those special people: a cultivated person (i mean: avoids certain actions out of a moral feeling; can't say that of all my teachers... unfortunately) who really knows how to teach (he could explain me the mathematical parts of economy haha)and could go beyond the books in personal discussions about alternative views on economy + he just know almost too much :)
c) i did a lot of things not completely but half - just enough. I feel i could have been way more fluent in chinese if i'd just spent more time at it on a disciplined way. I could have been able to play guitar way better; could have been, could have been, could have could, etc... So point b is positive, but also has its drawbacks...
that's it for now,
i'm going off into the wild again - i need it; beyond the sheep towards the cows and horses (not really wild, not really tame too = quite cool (H) )
breath, enough,
fedde
dinsdag 26 mei 2009
finals (again, haha)
nothing special. just greek - tough one, but not impossible. Bit more difficult than latin was, but still it will be goooood i think. :)
WOW; just 3 finals to go. Then it is OVER! :D:D:D:D:D:D yeah!
and i'll be living a different life all together! :) Lots of changes. :)
one of my shorter posts :P
so to fill it up a bit, here's some music, ''chameleon'' by Herbie Hancock!! nice one
hope you enjoy,
enjoy,
fedde
WOW; just 3 finals to go. Then it is OVER! :D:D:D:D:D:D yeah!
and i'll be living a different life all together! :) Lots of changes. :)
one of my shorter posts :P
so to fill it up a bit, here's some music, ''chameleon'' by Herbie Hancock!! nice one
hope you enjoy,
enjoy,
fedde
maandag 25 mei 2009
a poem
Anke (van Dijk) just let me read a poem she wrote:
Did you ever see a butterfly
Fly where she shouldn’t fly?
Is it brave or foolish if you try
To cross the sea, the gamble to die?
What was she thinking, no one knows
Your guess might be as good as mine
Was she just so attracted by the shine
The way the sun on the waves turns to gold
Maybe she didn’t care about the waves
Perhaps she longed to the land across
The foreign seems to have some gloss
Life always appears better there
Possibly she was just sick of company
With the others, she was just one more clone
She’d rather be unique, she’d rather be alone
She left her kin to feel whole again
The urge that took her to go in the end
We’ll never unearth wat it was like just to dare
She just got so weary she couldn’t stay in the air
Her tiny wings now flow away with the tide
which then reminds me of the song Another Brick in the Wall by Pink Floyd (from The Wall (movie)):
(specifically the remark by the teacher)
which then reminds me of Foucault; which then reminds me of current ''scientific'' paradigms - to which i'll come back later; what reminds me of still not having posted my Gwan Yin story... forgive me, i will. :)
well, please take care not to drown, please,
beybey,
fedde
(Ps, Anke just tells me she'd love reactions and feedback; so you're absolutely invited (as always btw) to comment!)
Did you ever see a butterfly
Fly where she shouldn’t fly?
Is it brave or foolish if you try
To cross the sea, the gamble to die?
What was she thinking, no one knows
Your guess might be as good as mine
Was she just so attracted by the shine
The way the sun on the waves turns to gold
Maybe she didn’t care about the waves
Perhaps she longed to the land across
The foreign seems to have some gloss
Life always appears better there
Possibly she was just sick of company
With the others, she was just one more clone
She’d rather be unique, she’d rather be alone
She left her kin to feel whole again
The urge that took her to go in the end
We’ll never unearth wat it was like just to dare
She just got so weary she couldn’t stay in the air
Her tiny wings now flow away with the tide
which then reminds me of the song Another Brick in the Wall by Pink Floyd (from The Wall (movie)):
(specifically the remark by the teacher)
which then reminds me of Foucault; which then reminds me of current ''scientific'' paradigms - to which i'll come back later; what reminds me of still not having posted my Gwan Yin story... forgive me, i will. :)
well, please take care not to drown, please,
beybey,
fedde
(Ps, Anke just tells me she'd love reactions and feedback; so you're absolutely invited (as always btw) to comment!)
finals and feelings
Today was Latin and Maths. Actually both went really good! :D Sooo cool! :D:D Euphoria :)
But really: even math was ok. Some questions seemed impossible to me but most of it was easy enough for me; i.e. it felt like perfect. :)
Latin was the same old story... which is the nice old story we've been writing the last few years: i'm good at it, so no need to worry the least bit.
so if latin was possible, greek won't be impossible. :D ::tomorrow.
So that's 5/9 => will all be ok, all will be ok, everything.
The title - how a nice alliteration! - promises feelings; well don't expect too much... but besides the euphoria because of the finals, I'm feeling bad/sad/tired/not really positive... :(
Why do certain people always give their opinions about me: what i should like and how i should be? And why can i still not just take it and leave it? -that's about enough i guess...
so to cheer myself up i'm now going to listen, for the fourth time - or was it fifth? - to ''new song'' by leaf:
sleep well, - or whatever you do: ____ well,
fedde
edit: one more time, at least, playing the song... ;P
But really: even math was ok. Some questions seemed impossible to me but most of it was easy enough for me; i.e. it felt like perfect. :)
Latin was the same old story... which is the nice old story we've been writing the last few years: i'm good at it, so no need to worry the least bit.
so if latin was possible, greek won't be impossible. :D ::tomorrow.
So that's 5/9 => will all be ok, all will be ok, everything.
The title - how a nice alliteration! - promises feelings; well don't expect too much... but besides the euphoria because of the finals, I'm feeling bad/sad/tired/not really positive... :(
Why do certain people always give their opinions about me: what i should like and how i should be? And why can i still not just take it and leave it? -that's about enough i guess...
so to cheer myself up i'm now going to listen, for the fourth time - or was it fifth? - to ''new song'' by leaf:
sleep well, - or whatever you do: ____ well,
fedde
edit: one more time, at least, playing the song... ;P
zaterdag 23 mei 2009
Dharma Master Heng Sure Video; Robert Thurman Video
Found this talk by Dharma Master Heng Sure. Nice, practical inter-religious demonstration. :) Might wanna just watch it (not do 3 other things while watching :P):
Another talk, by a leading Buddhist scholar/practitioner, Robert Thurman, nice general talk to and about the world (get ready for a little politics :P):
peace (would love it!),
fedde (whose name is said to mean ''peace'' actually :)
Another talk, by a leading Buddhist scholar/practitioner, Robert Thurman, nice general talk to and about the world (get ready for a little politics :P):
peace (would love it!),
fedde (whose name is said to mean ''peace'' actually :)
time, summer (?!), studying
ok, today i really studied again (will go back to the books after this post); did a lot of greek. :) And math (might actually work monday). And geography...
It is warm... making me sloooow if i'm in the sun. Well, it is relative of course: 25 degrees celsius, but warm enough to me. Ain't summer yet i guess though? is it?
time is really flying...:
1 week: finished the finals;
2 weeks: attending lectures by the Dalai Lama (http://www.dalailamanederland.nl/site/) and flying to china;
5 weeks: graduation ceremony;
8 weeks: flying to the City of Ten Thousand Buddhas (:D!);
14 weeks: Start of the academic year at Leiden university (31 August).
How exciting! :D:D:D:D
my little brother just reminded me of his and my little sister's website: http://www.bigfun.eigenstart.nl/
how cool! It features: info for helping the environment; a recipe for a smoothie; tv-programs they follow; info on Unicef; advices for near-middle school students (dunno if that's the right term for ''bijna-brugklassers''?? fellow dutchies might wanna help me on this one... :P)
so cute...
peace,
fedde
It is warm... making me sloooow if i'm in the sun. Well, it is relative of course: 25 degrees celsius, but warm enough to me. Ain't summer yet i guess though? is it?
time is really flying...:
1 week: finished the finals;
2 weeks: attending lectures by the Dalai Lama (http://www.dalailamanederland.nl/site/) and flying to china;
5 weeks: graduation ceremony;
8 weeks: flying to the City of Ten Thousand Buddhas (:D!);
14 weeks: Start of the academic year at Leiden university (31 August).
How exciting! :D:D:D:D
my little brother just reminded me of his and my little sister's website: http://www.bigfun.eigenstart.nl/
how cool! It features: info for helping the environment; a recipe for a smoothie; tv-programs they follow; info on Unicef; advices for near-middle school students (dunno if that's the right term for ''bijna-brugklassers''?? fellow dutchies might wanna help me on this one... :P)
so cute...
peace,
fedde
vrijdag 22 mei 2009
dunno
ok, yesterday went for a walk again, matthee still had to make and eat his dinner, thus wasn't coming, nor was fedrik.
So I was alone, encountered one of the ''shepherds'' (they keep an occasional eye on the sheeps) way off the road (:P) as i was just coming down from a tree (5 metres high or so? -> me)...
I told him about the dead sheep; he didn't know about it but would like to, so i showed him the poor sheep. And was nice to talk to him; he was very kind. :)
He was interested in what i told about Arne Naess and Deep Ecology, and he told me about a dutch gardener/philosopher: Louis G. le Roy and his book ''natuur inschakelen, natuur uitschakelen''. He is the ''builder'' of an eco-cathedral (which is actually in the province I live in: Friesland, or, in Frisian, Fryslân (easier to pronounce in English (just read out loud as if it were english); Frisian is said to be very close to be old english; I once heard that frisian-speakers and old-english speakers can communicate without much problems)) - euhm... where was i? - of which you can see photos here:
http://www.ecokathedraal.nl/
they actually have an english website! :D :
http://www.stichtingtijd.nl/en/index.php
this morning i woke up from a dream in which one of the images was me, standing before a mirror, thinking i was soo tired, and then blaming my jetlag - the setting was CTTB, or actually some mixed up nonsense dream with the knowledge i was in CTTB... strange - ... pff must mean something about my being tired...
ok, please forgive me my archaic language... :P
sleep well, any way,
fedde
So I was alone, encountered one of the ''shepherds'' (they keep an occasional eye on the sheeps) way off the road (:P) as i was just coming down from a tree (5 metres high or so? -> me)...
I told him about the dead sheep; he didn't know about it but would like to, so i showed him the poor sheep. And was nice to talk to him; he was very kind. :)
He was interested in what i told about Arne Naess and Deep Ecology, and he told me about a dutch gardener/philosopher: Louis G. le Roy and his book ''natuur inschakelen, natuur uitschakelen''. He is the ''builder'' of an eco-cathedral (which is actually in the province I live in: Friesland, or, in Frisian, Fryslân (easier to pronounce in English (just read out loud as if it were english); Frisian is said to be very close to be old english; I once heard that frisian-speakers and old-english speakers can communicate without much problems)) - euhm... where was i? - of which you can see photos here:
http://www.ecokathedraal.nl/
they actually have an english website! :D :
http://www.stichtingtijd.nl/en/index.php
this morning i woke up from a dream in which one of the images was me, standing before a mirror, thinking i was soo tired, and then blaming my jetlag - the setting was CTTB, or actually some mixed up nonsense dream with the knowledge i was in CTTB... strange - ... pff must mean something about my being tired...
ok, please forgive me my archaic language... :P
sleep well, any way,
fedde
donderdag 21 mei 2009
recab
being close to nature - fighting the elements - cold - bugs - fear - and enjoying wonderful macro and micro scenery - does really help me; i need it.
-from my former post; felt it needed to be said a second time
doeidoei,
fedde
-from my former post; felt it needed to be said a second time
doeidoei,
fedde
blaah :( ; + yesterday
blah blah blah;
6 finals 4 days; grrr; i just don't feel like studying at all... perhaps i should go feel guilty? I think i should. And subsequently work on my math, latin and greek...
ok, but yesterday was fun. I went out ''into the wild'' - my own little wilderness at the lake, where our hut is - alone twice. The first time i first lost my glasses while climbing a tree! That was kinda strange to crawl over the ground in a desparate search for my glasses. Just not giving up was the only clue to finding them; which took me quite a while without them. :P But i found them and that was sooo funny! I actually found my classes :D
Thereafter i found a nice tree to sit in and read. I could actually sit in full lotus in the tree; meditating a bit, reading poetry, reading a book, and reading on geography! In a tree!
Then went home for dinner.
After dinner i went to Matthee, asked whether he'd come along - he had to work -, went to Fedrik (another long time friend) who also had to work - poor me - so went alone. So barefooted i went into the wild. Quite impulsive; i needed the experience, very deep felt. I actually swam!
Then I wanted to do some prayers and built a primitive altar. While i was building a sheep with her two baby sheep came and looked at me - wanted to turn around - i spoke to her softly not to be afraid - but my speaking didn't help that much... so then i thought of the Six Syllable Mantra of Avalokiteshvara (the name has more syllables than the mantra) and thought she might like that and it felt positive to recite for her and her babies. So I did - and somehow she liked it. For some minutes she kept looking at me as if really wishing to hear it - i believe she really wished me to recite on and on.
So then i wanted to meditate; the mosquitoes thought it a good idea. So i tried patience but au; so after finding out that putting grass on my legs didn't help, found out that the only way to keep 'm of my legs would be mud - which worked and is the reason they decided to go for my arms - luckily not that much, but my arms are covered with mosquitoe bites now.
okay, i'll admit, i'm weird... :)
But being close to nature - fighting the elements - cold - bugs - fear - and enjoying wonderful macro and micro scenery - does really help me; i need it. And I now really hope Matthee will come along tonight, would be cool again! :D
keep it green,
fedde
6 finals 4 days; grrr; i just don't feel like studying at all... perhaps i should go feel guilty? I think i should. And subsequently work on my math, latin and greek...
ok, but yesterday was fun. I went out ''into the wild'' - my own little wilderness at the lake, where our hut is - alone twice. The first time i first lost my glasses while climbing a tree! That was kinda strange to crawl over the ground in a desparate search for my glasses. Just not giving up was the only clue to finding them; which took me quite a while without them. :P But i found them and that was sooo funny! I actually found my classes :D
Thereafter i found a nice tree to sit in and read. I could actually sit in full lotus in the tree; meditating a bit, reading poetry, reading a book, and reading on geography! In a tree!
Then went home for dinner.
After dinner i went to Matthee, asked whether he'd come along - he had to work -, went to Fedrik (another long time friend) who also had to work - poor me - so went alone. So barefooted i went into the wild. Quite impulsive; i needed the experience, very deep felt. I actually swam!
Then I wanted to do some prayers and built a primitive altar. While i was building a sheep with her two baby sheep came and looked at me - wanted to turn around - i spoke to her softly not to be afraid - but my speaking didn't help that much... so then i thought of the Six Syllable Mantra of Avalokiteshvara (the name has more syllables than the mantra) and thought she might like that and it felt positive to recite for her and her babies. So I did - and somehow she liked it. For some minutes she kept looking at me as if really wishing to hear it - i believe she really wished me to recite on and on.
So then i wanted to meditate; the mosquitoes thought it a good idea. So i tried patience but au; so after finding out that putting grass on my legs didn't help, found out that the only way to keep 'm of my legs would be mud - which worked and is the reason they decided to go for my arms - luckily not that much, but my arms are covered with mosquitoe bites now.
okay, i'll admit, i'm weird... :)
But being close to nature - fighting the elements - cold - bugs - fear - and enjoying wonderful macro and micro scenery - does really help me; i need it. And I now really hope Matthee will come along tonight, would be cool again! :D
keep it green,
fedde
woensdag 20 mei 2009
finals (again!) and resilience :)
History finals went quite good! :D Better than it could've been. Now four days no exams; time to check up with latin, greek and geography, aaaand (noooh) maths... :P 6 finals in 4 days next week: who on earth made that timetable?!
So here are two links from about.com on resilience; what it is and how to develop it:
http://stress.about.com/od/understandingstress/a/resilience.htm
http://stress.about.com/od/positiveattitude/ht/resilient.htm
So let's check up with myself:
1. Develop The Right Attitude
-> not blaming myself? unfortunately that's one of my destructive habits :P; well i'm working on it...
2. Become Aware
-> yeah, i've got that one i'd think
3. Develop An Internal Locus of Control
-> well i have the bad habit of blaming things around me when i'm feeling bad - another destructive habit unfortunately - yet more and more do i see that ''Everything is made from the mind alone.'' (-Avatamsaka Sutra). That is not an idea ''out there''; but really applicable: change the mind - change the world!
4. Cultivate Optimism
-> :) no problem. I often say: ''it'll all be ok, and if not, well then not'' (well, i say it in dutch of course: het komt allemaal wel goed, en zo niet, naja dan niet'')
5. Rally Social Support
-> well let's just stop after stating that i've not always been the most socially intelligent person... or at least didn't behave that way. (People can change though, i believe i did.)
6. Maintain Your Sense of Humor
-> hahahaha! :D:D:D
7. Exercise
-> ok ok ok; i should pick it up again... actually i did run sunday! after some weeks of physical laziness :P
8. Get In Touch With Your Spiritual Side
-> this one is true. And i'm often working on it.
9. Don’t Give Up
-> that's generally not something i often do (at least that's what i think :P)
ok... i'm curious what you would answer at those points...... ? :)
beybey
fedde
So here are two links from about.com on resilience; what it is and how to develop it:
http://stress.about.com/od/understandingstress/a/resilience.htm
http://stress.about.com/od/positiveattitude/ht/resilient.htm
So let's check up with myself:
1. Develop The Right Attitude
-> not blaming myself? unfortunately that's one of my destructive habits :P; well i'm working on it...
2. Become Aware
-> yeah, i've got that one i'd think
3. Develop An Internal Locus of Control
-> well i have the bad habit of blaming things around me when i'm feeling bad - another destructive habit unfortunately - yet more and more do i see that ''Everything is made from the mind alone.'' (-Avatamsaka Sutra). That is not an idea ''out there''; but really applicable: change the mind - change the world!
4. Cultivate Optimism
-> :) no problem. I often say: ''it'll all be ok, and if not, well then not'' (well, i say it in dutch of course: het komt allemaal wel goed, en zo niet, naja dan niet'')
5. Rally Social Support
-> well let's just stop after stating that i've not always been the most socially intelligent person... or at least didn't behave that way. (People can change though, i believe i did.)
6. Maintain Your Sense of Humor
-> hahahaha! :D:D:D
7. Exercise
-> ok ok ok; i should pick it up again... actually i did run sunday! after some weeks of physical laziness :P
8. Get In Touch With Your Spiritual Side
-> this one is true. And i'm often working on it.
9. Don’t Give Up
-> that's generally not something i often do (at least that's what i think :P)
ok... i'm curious what you would answer at those points...... ? :)
beybey
fedde
dinsdag 19 mei 2009
yesterday, finals, and a short movie
to you, reader,
first comes yesterday,
went to the hut again with my little brother,
my long time good friend Matthee came too,
made the hut a better place :)
met sheep (who roam there freely);
my little brother decided to go home round 19:30 to do some studying (he is only 10! really, how funny) and computering (duh, else he doesn't live);
so we stayed and worked some more, then decided to go reading a bit (i had brought two books)... ended up climbing trees. We actually got really high; and some meters above the ground the world looks really different. What an experience we had! Yet so simple! :D:D
thereafter we finally got ourselves reading, with the lake and the sunset as our brilliant view; we only went home 22:00 :P - usually bedtime for me -, me still wishing to clean my feet (well it was necesarry) and recite some prayers to complete my day - was a nice and fulfilling day that way.
So, this morning comes next:
philosophy final. yeah, was okay again. Some of the questions were a bit, well, strange though. But I'm sure i made it (100% sure). Tomorrow history. that's difficult... it will work, sure.
(now, please don't think i don't try to get the best out of it usually, but these finals are something that are too important for me to be too serious about)
the short movie i promised:
very nicely done, good visual effects, i like it. We should all learn from it (not only the californian population)
enjoy the weather, whatever it is! :)
fedde
first comes yesterday,
went to the hut again with my little brother,
my long time good friend Matthee came too,
made the hut a better place :)
met sheep (who roam there freely);
my little brother decided to go home round 19:30 to do some studying (he is only 10! really, how funny) and computering (duh, else he doesn't live);
so we stayed and worked some more, then decided to go reading a bit (i had brought two books)... ended up climbing trees. We actually got really high; and some meters above the ground the world looks really different. What an experience we had! Yet so simple! :D:D
thereafter we finally got ourselves reading, with the lake and the sunset as our brilliant view; we only went home 22:00 :P - usually bedtime for me -, me still wishing to clean my feet (well it was necesarry) and recite some prayers to complete my day - was a nice and fulfilling day that way.
So, this morning comes next:
philosophy final. yeah, was okay again. Some of the questions were a bit, well, strange though. But I'm sure i made it (100% sure). Tomorrow history. that's difficult... it will work, sure.
(now, please don't think i don't try to get the best out of it usually, but these finals are something that are too important for me to be too serious about)
the short movie i promised:
very nicely done, good visual effects, i like it. We should all learn from it (not only the californian population)
enjoy the weather, whatever it is! :)
fedde
maandag 18 mei 2009
finals and a song
ok, that is what it was: ok. Dutch was no problem. And now i'll spend my afternoon looking at philosophy (tomorrow) and some history (wednesday).
And, i'd like to share the next song (dutch one though, might be better :P):
-burgertrut, by Yora Rienstra
sorry for liking it. For me it is a protest against people living their lives brainlessly, conforming with whatever the paradigm tells them to. I do think communities are valuable, but i also value independence. (Which is actually one of the strengths of much sages: forest monks having spent a lot of time alone out there in the forest. Master Hsu Yun, Master Hsuan Hua, Ajahn Chah; such people come to my mind; they definetely did not conform to the paradigm, but differed on a wholesome way.)
beybey,
fedde
And, i'd like to share the next song (dutch one though, might be better :P):
-burgertrut, by Yora Rienstra
sorry for liking it. For me it is a protest against people living their lives brainlessly, conforming with whatever the paradigm tells them to. I do think communities are valuable, but i also value independence. (Which is actually one of the strengths of much sages: forest monks having spent a lot of time alone out there in the forest. Master Hsu Yun, Master Hsuan Hua, Ajahn Chah; such people come to my mind; they definetely did not conform to the paradigm, but differed on a wholesome way.)
beybey,
fedde
zondag 17 mei 2009
tomorrow, and... i promise a story
tomorrow is my first final: :Dutch :D
my current note is an 8; so it will all be o.k.; no matter what.
Oh yes; i've got a Gwan Yin story - really really real - to share; i'll post it soon. :)
now gonna recite a bit, check up with the official procedures for the finals and see if i can still use my bed for what it's for: sleeping soundly.
my current note is an 8; so it will all be o.k.; no matter what.
Oh yes; i've got a Gwan Yin story - really really real - to share; i'll post it soon. :)
now gonna recite a bit, check up with the official procedures for the finals and see if i can still use my bed for what it's for: sleeping soundly.
Mahler - friday evening
friday evening I went, with my mom, to the 3rd symphony of Mahler performed by the NNO. Was REALLY great! :D
Incredible music Mahler wrote.
Some of the heavy stuff XD :
(if you watch, please watch it all)
notice how much difference there is between any two movements.
The music really goes deeeeep sometimes. I really was frightened sometimes; desperate... => trumpets; gotta love 'm :)
enjoy,
fedde
Incredible music Mahler wrote.
Some of the heavy stuff XD :
(if you watch, please watch it all)
notice how much difference there is between any two movements.
The music really goes deeeeep sometimes. I really was frightened sometimes; desperate... => trumpets; gotta love 'm :)
enjoy,
fedde
zaterdag 16 mei 2009
blah XD
Learning, learning, learning till i don't get anything into my system anymore - do some nonsense nothingy things - learn again... quite enjoyable actually
hehe
but it would be nice if it were all over... like:
donderdag 14 mei 2009
talk by Dharma Master Heng Sure on youtube
Just saw this talk by Dharma Master Heng Sure:
very nice, very applicable, :) worth the effort, for sure
may all be free of all disturbing emotions,
fedde
very nice, very applicable, :) worth the effort, for sure
may all be free of all disturbing emotions,
fedde
how great!
just saw this one Dharma Master Heng Sure's blog:
http://www.ecobuddhism.org/buddhist-declaration.php
have yet to look into it - i will - but my glance tells me it is wholesome, really. :)
The world needs it, needs us... now!
get a smile on your face :D
fedde
http://www.ecobuddhism.org/buddhist-declaration.php
have yet to look into it - i will - but my glance tells me it is wholesome, really. :)
The world needs it, needs us... now!
get a smile on your face :D
fedde
sooooo sooooo tired (visum, In, Leiden, hospiteren)
Yesterday was, well, ... tiring.
First i got up at 6:15 (normal time for me is only 15 minutes later so this is not shocking yet) then i didn't do the morning recitations i usually do (which is shocking) had a quick breakfast and got on the train to The Hague.
On the train i did do my recitations, quietly though, without any voice. And that was very good to do actually. I could really sense my mind going back to calm and positive states.
Then i got myself on the tram to the Chinese embassy. There was an old iraqi couple with their grandchild and they were soooo nice! The grandchild, a baby in a real pram (i just looked that word up, is that really what it is called?)- like this one http://www.oxana.nl/img/portfolio/briefkaarten/geboorte/kinderwagen.jpg - was really cute. They asked me very kindly whether this - Adriaan Goekooplaan - was where to get off to get to the embassies; i said yes, asked them what embassy they went - of Iraq - told where i was going and wished them a very nice trip when we had to part ways.
After that I visited In Liem. A dharma friend i met when i resided at Rabten Choeling, a tibetan (gelugpa) monastery in Switzerland. She has been studying the dharma for a looong time and is currently building up a temple on the other side of her street. It was nice to see her again - talking about economics, politics, the current crisis (and it's causes - she is a economist), the dharma and the temple. She briefly showed me the temple in it's current state - looks good, peaceful and calm. The Gwan Yin statue i gave her/the temple when i visited her some months ago and actually stayed over and helped a bit at the temple was on the altar now. :)
Then I went on to Leiden. I had to find a way to kill my time awaiting the ''hospiteeravond'' I'd be going (a night on which several room-seekers visit a room and those currently living there, the potential roommates, check them out and afterwards decide who will get the room). So i walked through the city center two or three times, spent time in some of the parks reading a bit, almost got into the UB (University's Libary) - but didn't cause i was to lazy and poor to get myself a locker to dump my bag and coat. Finally it was time and well, it was a nice room, nice roommates (two studens - history and psychology/philosophy (he does 1.5 study :P)); the other two candidates were also nice people... as always i first ''look the cat out of the tree'' (sorry for such a blunt dutchism, but i like the expression) when in a multi-person meeting with people i don't know. They said they's text the one who would get the room before 23:00; i didn't receive any text so i figure i didn't get the room :P
Bummer... really
But i feel somehow that it is okay. They wanted a person who would be explicitly social, hanging out with them a lot. And i'm not sure whether i really want that: i'm searching for a room, not for people.
I guess that when i find out that i have a lot of free time next year i'll probably be filling that up by reading extra books for college, or take up some extra class.
But i left the hospiteeravond a little late (early in a sense too): i had to run to miss the train - and so i did. On my sandals and with my backpack i ran from one side of town to the other. (I did draw quite some attention from a lot of people this way. :P)
And so i missed the train which could bring me to my neighbourhood; luckily my dad picked me up at the main train station here, in Leeuwarden. (Thank's!)
o.k. now i'm tired and haven't done anything useful, probably won't do either.
stay safe, please :)
see you
fedde
First i got up at 6:15 (normal time for me is only 15 minutes later so this is not shocking yet) then i didn't do the morning recitations i usually do (which is shocking) had a quick breakfast and got on the train to The Hague.
On the train i did do my recitations, quietly though, without any voice. And that was very good to do actually. I could really sense my mind going back to calm and positive states.
Then i got myself on the tram to the Chinese embassy. There was an old iraqi couple with their grandchild and they were soooo nice! The grandchild, a baby in a real pram (i just looked that word up, is that really what it is called?)- like this one http://www.oxana.nl/img/portfolio/briefkaarten/geboorte/kinderwagen.jpg - was really cute. They asked me very kindly whether this - Adriaan Goekooplaan - was where to get off to get to the embassies; i said yes, asked them what embassy they went - of Iraq - told where i was going and wished them a very nice trip when we had to part ways.
After that I visited In Liem. A dharma friend i met when i resided at Rabten Choeling, a tibetan (gelugpa) monastery in Switzerland. She has been studying the dharma for a looong time and is currently building up a temple on the other side of her street. It was nice to see her again - talking about economics, politics, the current crisis (and it's causes - she is a economist), the dharma and the temple. She briefly showed me the temple in it's current state - looks good, peaceful and calm. The Gwan Yin statue i gave her/the temple when i visited her some months ago and actually stayed over and helped a bit at the temple was on the altar now. :)
Then I went on to Leiden. I had to find a way to kill my time awaiting the ''hospiteeravond'' I'd be going (a night on which several room-seekers visit a room and those currently living there, the potential roommates, check them out and afterwards decide who will get the room). So i walked through the city center two or three times, spent time in some of the parks reading a bit, almost got into the UB (University's Libary) - but didn't cause i was to lazy and poor to get myself a locker to dump my bag and coat. Finally it was time and well, it was a nice room, nice roommates (two studens - history and psychology/philosophy (he does 1.5 study :P)); the other two candidates were also nice people... as always i first ''look the cat out of the tree'' (sorry for such a blunt dutchism, but i like the expression) when in a multi-person meeting with people i don't know. They said they's text the one who would get the room before 23:00; i didn't receive any text so i figure i didn't get the room :P
Bummer... really
But i feel somehow that it is okay. They wanted a person who would be explicitly social, hanging out with them a lot. And i'm not sure whether i really want that: i'm searching for a room, not for people.
I guess that when i find out that i have a lot of free time next year i'll probably be filling that up by reading extra books for college, or take up some extra class.
But i left the hospiteeravond a little late (early in a sense too): i had to run to miss the train - and so i did. On my sandals and with my backpack i ran from one side of town to the other. (I did draw quite some attention from a lot of people this way. :P)
And so i missed the train which could bring me to my neighbourhood; luckily my dad picked me up at the main train station here, in Leeuwarden. (Thank's!)
o.k. now i'm tired and haven't done anything useful, probably won't do either.
stay safe, please :)
see you
fedde
dinsdag 12 mei 2009
when stories live
Today I was working through some excerpts of Homerus' Illias for my finals. And wow, the text, an oooooold text it is, came alive. Sometimes those old texts in a dead language just stay just that - dead. But 'cause i have been working with this text for 10 months or so, i now could really read it and understand it as a story: the feelings are human, the dialogues are human, - very basic human emotions, nothing made up too much, just a story that was kept available for such a loooong time. I'm grateful for it - the opportunity to have acces to human history in this way - directly.
beyey,
and stay safe, everyone!
fedde
beyey,
and stay safe, everyone!
fedde
nobody knows me at all
brilliant clip; very close to how i often feel...
I made my life complex, little too much perhaps... :P
yet happy,
get happy!
fedde
http://www.plu.edu/~kcnstv26/img/smiley-face.jpg
I made my life complex, little too much perhaps... :P
yet happy,
get happy!
fedde
http://www.plu.edu/~kcnstv26/img/smiley-face.jpg
zaterdag 9 mei 2009
Happy to be a vegetarian
:)
Sometimes i'm i realize i don't eat meat and that makes me happy!
=> not hurting animals;
=> healthy for sure!
http://www.goveg.com/theissues.asp nice site;
and just forcing you to watch a video:
of course, don't forget to check out the DRBA vegpage: http://drba.org/dharma/veggie/default.asp
and dr Epstein's recent collection of information: http://www.cttbusa.org/climate/globalwarming.asp
may all live peacefully and happy!
fedde
Sometimes i'm i realize i don't eat meat and that makes me happy!
=> not hurting animals;
=> healthy for sure!
http://www.goveg.com/theissues.asp nice site;
and just forcing you to watch a video:
of course, don't forget to check out the DRBA vegpage: http://drba.org/dharma/veggie/default.asp
and dr Epstein's recent collection of information: http://www.cttbusa.org/climate/globalwarming.asp
may all live peacefully and happy!
fedde
woensdag 6 mei 2009
lazy livin'
aiyaa...
really nothing that much to do; just studying for the finals and wishing to be done. And building a hut of course (what else do you do when you're supposed to study ;) ) Together with my little brother and whoever we bring we use whatever we find at the spot. It's one of the few places i know where people aren't continuously nurturing nature...
Working at the hut gets me closer to nature, which is good, really good.
Deep Ecology (see below) is definitely interesting and inspiring! (The book i'm reading is ''Deep ecology for the 21st century'' - edited by George Sessions.)
I said it before, but nevertheless... going to university next year and traveling this summer is a liberation; i need my time, on my own. New people, new books, new things to study, old subjects deepened, new experiences, and so forth and so on...
Though of course not just forsaking my roots with that. Rereading an old book (meeting long forgotten friends, etc) is surely useful. Like now, the third time (or so) through the Shurangama Sutra in my lifetime. Deepness i had never seen before!
see y'all one day, one day... :)
be (happ)y
fedde
really nothing that much to do; just studying for the finals and wishing to be done. And building a hut of course (what else do you do when you're supposed to study ;) ) Together with my little brother and whoever we bring we use whatever we find at the spot. It's one of the few places i know where people aren't continuously nurturing nature...
Working at the hut gets me closer to nature, which is good, really good.
Deep Ecology (see below) is definitely interesting and inspiring! (The book i'm reading is ''Deep ecology for the 21st century'' - edited by George Sessions.)
I said it before, but nevertheless... going to university next year and traveling this summer is a liberation; i need my time, on my own. New people, new books, new things to study, old subjects deepened, new experiences, and so forth and so on...
Though of course not just forsaking my roots with that. Rereading an old book (meeting long forgotten friends, etc) is surely useful. Like now, the third time (or so) through the Shurangama Sutra in my lifetime. Deepness i had never seen before!
see y'all one day, one day... :)
be (happ)y
fedde
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